I have lost my illusions, I have drown in your words, I have left my confusion...– “So Beautiful” by Savage Garden
#14: The Old Woman
September, 2006.[[MORE]] She stood in front of the door for almost 20 minutes and still, she did not had the courage she was looking for to knock on the door. “Are you going to go in, kid?” one of the nurses asked her. “Yes, I just need a minute,” she said nervously. The nurses nodded and walked away. It was her third visit and yet she felt like it was the first time...
October, 2006.[[MORE]] When she found him, he was laying on his stomach on the garden, writing furiously on a book. He was concentrating so hard that he didn’t realize that she was there until she cleared her throat. “What are you doing?” she asked. “I’m sorry. About everything, I promised I would never do anything behind your back anymore,” he quickly...
Midnight, humans. I got lots of things to write lately. My sleeping pattern is a mess and I’m sneezing blood all over. I tried to sleep but it seemed like my brain just would not stop working so I study. I’ve been reading endocrine stuffs all night, it feels like I’ve known them by heart right now. In between those moments where I tried to fall asleep, I thought of three...
December, 2006.[[MORE]] “What are you looking at?” said a voice, pulling her out of her head. She did not realized she was staring at a boy. A foreigner boy. A foreigner boy that spoke in her native language. She was pretty sure that she was standing in front of her boyfriend’s house and not this foreigner. She was at lost for words. “Um, nothing,” she said...
You were disappointed, I saw it, I felt it. I am disappointed, I see it, I feel it. The look on your face when I told you those things, was enough to make me regret every step I took. Enough to make me regret not doing everything seriously. For the first time in my life, I am disappointed with myself. For the first time in my life, I want to be better. For the first time in my life, I want to...
Anonymous asked: you should write a book, your life is like fairies' dust in a bottle
I forgot to tell you all that today is King’s Birthday! By King, I mean Eric. Friedrich Damian Adriano. I know, what an overrated name. He insisted to be called ‘Eric’ though, cause he thinks that Friedrich sounds kind of like ‘fried rice’, yes, fried rice the food. He said that May 16th is the day of King Eric (which I know nothing about), hence the reason why he...
My (wasted) Two Hours
Evening, humans. So, I could have gone home at 12.20 today but thanks to my unimate I ended up going home at 14.00. Yup, almost two hours too late. At first, we were about to go to the library so I could finish my download, but we had to go to see Professor Tentilan first because my unimate needed to get a anatomy-related file from him. Se we went to him. I thought copying stuffs would take 15...
#41: Lose Some, Get Some
April, 2008.[[MORE]] “Other than our birthday, do you know what else started on April?” he asked. She lifted up her head and looked at him before shrugging. He threw a receipt paper on her playfully then frowned. They were sitting on a small café across his school, she offered to pick him up since she skipped school that day. “What? Don’t blame if I forgot,” she...
December, 2008.[[MORE]] “Are we lost?” she asked, for the umpteenth time in the last 30 minutes. “No, we’re not,” he answered, for the umpteenth time in the last 30 minutes. “Are you sure? It’s almost 18.30, we’re gonna be late,” she said anxiously. “So what if we’re late, they are going to be so much later than us.” ...
Private, Burden, Hatred.
Morning, humans. I woke up at 4 AM this morning and instead of going back to sleep like I should have, I went on a morning run instead. A two hours long morning run. Needless to say, I’m very beat up right now. In the middle of that long run, my brain took the time to analyze my life while my legs worked like a personal unpaid slave. As I looked back to every things that happened lately...
#60: The Bride and The Groom
December, 2009.[[MORE]] They stood with a plate full of foods on their hands. He was laughing so hard, his face turned red literally, while she was glancing nervously at his plate in case it falls of in between his fit of laughter. “Man, you’re a champ!” he yelled at the groom. “I know, right? And when are you gonna take your girlfriend of the market, eh? Soon?”...
Humans. There’s something extremely wrong with that species. They expected everyone to do what they would not do if the situations were turned. I guess that’s the characteristic of humans. So, was it wrong for me to expect people to do things that I would have done for them if the situations were turned? Maybe. I’ve been very dissapointed with this race since I can remember....
Evening, humans. This morning, when I was walking away from my car to the main building, somebody caught up after me. That person was no other than one of my unimates. I didn’t know that person quite well, we were in the same class last term but since I missed a lot of classes, I didn’t get to know that person. Let’s just refer the person as ‘it’. I’m not...
“Morning, my private 911. I went to Paris last night to get something done for my dissertation and while I was at it, I visited our favorite bar near Pont du Neuf, you remember? The spiky haired waiter you adored still work there. He recognized me right away after I ordered soda instead of alcoholic drinks like Octave’s. I swear I can almost hear him sing-king, ‘where’s...
June, 2010.[[MORE]] The World Cup: the only thing that seemed to be on the lips of everybody. Here, there, and everywhere. She didn’t exactly follow the development of the matches except for her favorite team. Their favorite team. “I bet you all my heart they’re going to be in the final match!” he had said to her over the internet. “Yeah, and I bet you all my life...
#67: Her Hypothesis
July, 2010.[[MORE]] It was the beginning of school year and just like any other year, she had hardly seen him during that time of year. Back then, it did not matter, now, it mattered. At least back then she knew that he was still there at their city, wandering around somewhere or probably just sitting on his favorite couch, watching sitcom like there was no tomorrow. Now, she knew she...
(Almost) Batik Friday
Evening, humans. Today, my life started when Professor Tentilan greeted me on the way to the class with “bajumu kanapa polos?” which I responded with “ngapa emang, pak?” Yes, he is one of the professors of DADA, hence the reason why I don’t like him that much, I’m not one of those arse-lickers after all. After class, my physiology group had a meeting with...
Afternoon, humans. Almost in the middle of second semester and all I can think about is how much of layers that every single person has until they can’t hold up those layers and simply stand there naked. There is one subject in this semester that made me see how much of an asshole people really are. Some are praising the dirt it walked on, some are chanting its name more than God’s,...
#68: One Last Dance
August, 2010.[[MORE]] She remembered everything, every word said, every dress wore, every food served, every single detail. It was his ‘official’ goodbye after all and she intended to have it pasted on her mind forever. There was only two things one on her mind that night. The first thing being him and how handsome he looked in his pricey designer suit and the second being him and...
September, 2010.[[MORE]] She walked through the crowded yet quiet corridor. She smiled politely as she passed by a few nurses on her way to the room she was heading to. A few more seconds of walking and she finally stood in front of a white wooden door. She knocked and waited until the door opened, revealing an old lady on her wheelchair and a nurse. The nurse gave her a nod before walking...
#70: Heart Changer
October, 2010.[[MORE]] The days went on and suddenly, it was in the middle of October, which means, he had been gone for two months now. She faced the day like that night never existed, like that place was never there, like their dance never happened, like nothing ever happened. People were worried at the first few weeks, especially the twins and E, they called her twice a week just to ask her...
November, 2010.[[MORE]] “Do you think this is necessary?” he asked her over the phone. “Well, I don’t think a new iPod is necessary when you already have another iPod,” she said, annoyed. “Why are you so easily annoyed lately?” “I don’t know, maybe you’re just annoying.” “No, I mean, aren’t you supposed to be all...
December, 2010.[[MORE]] “I’m begging you, please, please stop.” Silence. “Please don’t leave me hanging like this, please just don’t leave.” Silence. “What are you trying to proof? Who are you trying to kid? Please stop.” Silence. “Has it been long enough? You didn’t break before and you ain’t gonna start now. Hey, you hear me?” Silence. “Your silence is louder than screams, it’s deafening. Say...
Honestly, this is a very annoying and useless post, you might want to skip this post… So, today, something happened. Something even I still can’t get my mind wrapped on it. I was just sitting on the floor near the stair telling my uni-mate something about musculus extensorum abductor longus and friends when suddenly a person came up to us saying non-sense which ended with “kamu...
Wishes from GMT +7
Happy 20th birthday, Adam! With this, you officially spent half of your life together on me. Seven years of love and affection and ten years of your amazing friendship. You are the best. Period. Now that you’re leaving teenage years, I wish you all the best in the world that you could never even imagine. You were always so nice to me, of course in your own way of niceness bit still nice...
Evening, humans. This is the first post ever written from my new house. It’s a bit far from campus but then again, like I told one of my uni-mate last night, getting away from crowd is my hobby. And he asked me to get married right away, I was sure he was drunk… ANYWAY, it feels so quiet. When I was living in my old room, it was never quiet but then again it was a 3X3 room with...
January, 2011. [[MORE]] FDA, the letters were written all over her brand new notebook. A notebook she spent all her saving on. To say that she was fuming was an understatement. “Why are you so worked up about that?” E asked her, “it’s only a book.” “A 270K book!” she exclaimed angrily. “I’m sorry it looks cheap!” Upon hearing that,...
#74: The Tower
February, 2011.[[MORE]] There they were again, for the umpteenth time of the year, staring at each other through the screen. Thank God for technology, they had said many times over. “Remember the promise you forced me to make last year? I’m about to fulfill it,” she told him. “Which one?” “The tower.” “The tower? Oh, the tower? Seriously?”...
#75: Take It Off
She: Are your sure this is the right way?
E: Yes, shut up and just walk.
She: Should I even listen to you?
E: Yes, can you just shut up and walk straight?
E: *pulled her*
She: Ow, you're so rough!
E: *keep pulling her until they stumbled down*
She: You jerk, I twisted my ankle!
E: *sighed* Let me see. Pull up your pants.
She: My trouser doesn't go that far up.
E: Let's just walk then.
She: It hurts!
E: Then, let me see, pull up your pants.
She: It doesn't go up!
E: You can pull it up or you can take it off.
She: We're in the middle of the street!
E: Yeah, baby, and nobody wants to see your ass, so pull up your pants!
She: Can you be a little bit caring?
E: I care enough for you to be actually here instead of thousand miles away. I care enough to pick you up at 3 AM in another country. I care enough to not just left you here and walk away. I care enough to let you know that I care about you, it's just you who never seemed to want my affection, therefore, I stopped being affectionate with you.
#76: If I Had Known
April, 2011.[[MORE]] “What are we gonna do now?” “I don’t know, it’s your birthday, you tell me.” “You’d do anything?” “Anything.” “Tell me a lie.” “I despise you.” She smiled. “Tell me a joke.” “Knock, knock.” “Who’s there?” “Ta.” “Ta...
Evening, humans. Mother texted me just a minute ago saying that she’s selling the BMW. MY BMW. *sitting in the corner of every corner and sobbing quietly* Goodbye, my friend, I’m sure we’ll meet again someday… Still, it’s my car, why can’t mother sells one of her cars instead? BOOHOOHOO Now, it’s just me and Soraya, my very best friend. Sure,...
Evening, humans. I just got back from campus and still wearing my ‘campus-clothes’, but I just can’t wait to type this down! Today was supposed to be my first official encounter with the cadaver and just because of one simple thing, that hope was crushed into pieces in a matter of few words… By the way, a funny thing (and inappropriate) happened today. I was walking in...
Morning, humans. Last Friday, I attended physiology lecture held by one of my professor about Central Nervous System (CNS). It was interesting, to say the least, and a bit challenging. I’m not quite sure if the topic was really interesting or it was just the way the professor explained it that made it interesting. I’d like to think that it was both. Funny thing is that when I was in...
May, 2011.[[MORE]] I hope my smile can distract you I hope my fists can fight for two So it never has to show And you’ll never know I hope my love can blind you I hope my arms can bind you So you’ll never have to see What we’ve grown to be One may think we’re alright But we need pills to sleep at night We need lies to make it through the day We’re not okay One...
“He’s rude, he’s rough, he’s annoying, he’s mean, he’s annoying, he’s cold, he’s so goddamn annoying, he’s a first class asshole! How could you loved someone like him for so long? -Miranti Nadhira Putri, after a five minutes conversation with Darius Ardam Adriano. I told her that I don’t know and honestly, I really don’t. But...
So…I accidentally hit a car today and the owner of the car left an ultimatum in a piece of paper on my windshield while I was in class. It said to call someone named Dani and I feel like I want to call this Dani guy (or gal), ask him/her to meet me at the nearest kebon-tak-berpenghuni, and apologize to him/her for crashing the car before simply kill him/her with a banana and other fruity...
Evening, humans. Today, as you can see on the title box, is White Day. Hooray! Not many people celebrate it and I know for a fact that not even you knew about this occasion. White Day is one of my favorite events alongside Christmas and Idul Fitri. It’s practically the companion event of Valentine Day, cause you see, on White Day you’re entitled to give everyone who gave you stuffs...