April 2012
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Smells Like Freedom
Howdy.
Uh, probably not a great way to start a post, eh?
For those who wonders, I’ve been great and no, I haven’t died in a horrible fire, no, I haven’t been mistaken as a secret agent and murdered on spot, no, I’m still breathing, yes, I got a haircut.
My high school years unofficially ended yesterday, 1 PM precisely. I’m a free human being now and I just...
March 2012
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Rapid Hope Loss
So much for all the promises you made, they served you well and now you’re gone and they’re wasted on me.
I don’t quite understand how to identify the feelings I’m currently feeling. There’s so much of it, some I know, some I don’t. I noticed, anger and disappointment are one of them.
You weren’t so eager on giving up on me for the past seventeen...
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Another Day Another Task
Night humans!
Tonight will be the last night I’m having my parents bedroom as my own (they are coming back from Jeddah tomorrow night) and I think it would be nice if I wrote something on tumblr.
Right now, I have a lot of things in my mind. At first it was only practical exam, school exam, national exam, and my other unfinished school task (20 Surat and short story), BUT this morning my...
When someone comes into my room, and then leaves... →
February 2012
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One Last Time
Förstår du inte att jag älskar dig?
I promised you. I promised myself. I promised God. This is the last time.
You, don’t try to google what that means. I know you know what exactly it means. Right know I feel immensely disgusted by google translate. Life used to be much more interesting when we can talked with each other in a language no one else but us understand. So please, this once,...
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How's It Going to Be
I wonder how’s it going to be when it goes down, how’s it going to be when your not around, how’s it going to be when you found out there was nothing between you and me. ‘Cause I don’t care how’s it going to be.
I get what I want. Ear canal infection which caused temporary deafness in one ear.
I get it all, silence, the one thing I craved since I met...
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“Roses in a bucket, I want you naked.”
– Me, just now.
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Laugh All You Want
I promised myself not to ever look back but here I am, looking back.
Everyday before now, I would look over my shoulder and you would be there. I would stare at you while you’re mouthing the words “go on”. I would turn my head, walk ahead, and never look back, until another day you grab my shoulder and say “you forgot something”.
You would make silly excuse to...
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Do You See What I See?
It was always you, blocking me from the outside world as if I’m an expensive fragile china doll.
It was always you, blocking yourself from my touch as if I’m a deadly contagious virus with no cure.
It was always you, blocking everyone else from getting closer to me as if you’re afraid to lose a prized possession.
What am I to you? A child, a girl, a woman, a pet, a thing, a...
January 2012
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just a 'private' bitch
Aulia: and when we're older we're going to have a getaway house
Aulia: it's either on a secluded hill or a private bitch
nilam: a private bitch..... BITCH
Aulia: beach
Aulia: HAHAHAHA
Aulia: I'M LAUGHING
nilam: OF COURSE ME TOO
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Package
First, I’m gonna make sure you read this. Second, I’m gonna explain why I write this. Third, I’m gonna write what I’m going to write at first.
If you see this, the first thing is succeed.
I’m writing this here because I know no other way to contact someone without directly telling them. Want it or not, I have to publish it publicly.
I know you’re trying not...
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I had a dream.....where I met Patrick
and Spongebob’s real name is hanukkah. It was awesome.
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Life is Good
Afternoon, fellow humans!
This week is an awesome week for me, why? Because I went to school for only two days! :DDDD
At the house I’ve been busy watching Futurama and downloading iPhone games. I know I’m supposed to be blah blah blah study blah blah future but I just can’t resist…
I know what those kepo people said about me at school “look at her, 17 without a...
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Brother
Since I was a really really young kid, I’ve been wanting a big brother and then in 2007, I watched Supernatural and BAM! I have two big brothers :3
And today is my first virtual brother, Dean’s birthday!!! Hooray!
I love you, Dean! Wish you well!!!
P.S. Talking about supernatural, it reminds me of a really really old post (just click at the first mentioning of...
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Put your iPod on shuffle and see if your life was... →
Opening Credits: “Success Story” by Holiday Parade (way to start a life!)
Waking Up: “Hero/Heroine” by Boys Like Girls
Falling In Love: “Marry Me” by Train (*blush*)
Fight Song: “Light of Day” by Tommy Stinson (so….cupu)
Breaking Up: “Better That We Break” by Maroon 5 (I swear under the name of Allah, this is all coincidence!)
Life’s OK: “Someone Like You” by Adele
Getting Back...
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BOOKS DON'T TEACH HOW TO LIVE
I’m sick of school. I don’t want to go to university. I’m not ready to live the life I don’t want.
Other people feel nervous, lazy, sad, happy, excited, etc. with the fact that school is back tomorrow but I feel nothing. No sadness, no happiness, nothing. The worst time has come, school finally bores me. I have no intention of studying nor skipping. I just want it to end...
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"... since last year"
Did you catch my drift on the title, yet? No? Right, I’ll explain.
It’s 2012 and lately people been joking about “… since last year”, for example:
“You know I have been dating her since last year!” while in fact he dated her since December 31st, 2011.
It’s kind of funny to me but the funniest came from a man who lives far far far away from here....
2012
Afternoon, fellow humans!
It’s 2012. People are busy making resolution now, I’m sure of that, and as for me. I don’t think I will ever make any resolution list or anything like that because I’m just plain lazy. Though I don’t have resolutions, I have things I want to do this years. Like graduate, get out of this country, learn how to cook, and stuffs.
By the way,...
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“And… I’m horny all the time now.”
– Tyler (and putiau). Just now.
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December 2011
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Why do I *insert words from down below*?
Always:
Attracted to tall men.
So moody in everything.
Exceptionally good at something so exceptionally useless.
In love with someone who can’t love me back.
In need of music to calm me down.
Go berserk whenever something is not going my way.
Have to know everything about everything.
So fed up with school.
Have complete control over my emotion except rage.
Playing people like...
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It's Been So Long
Hello humans,
how long has it been since the last time I wrote? (too lazy to check)
So so I have a few news for you!
I finally finished on being undecided over my further study (read: university things) which means I know what I want now and I’m sure of it.
It’s gonna be 2012 soon!!!!! This year-end I will be going to somewhere nice. If it’s Jogja last year, this year will...
November 2011
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World is Small
I got into a car accident this morning. Though it was troublesome, it was kinda hilarious in it’s own way. I mean how many times you got into an accident where the victim, suspect, helper, and watcher, are all enrolled in the same school? It was really a coincidence, we had a bit of an awkward moment when the conversation started like:
The father: Go to your school health room now,...
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Freaky Friday
A lot of important and unimportant things happened today, like my addiction to Justin Bieber and my physic test which surprisingly I finished without much effort.
By the way, Ardam called few days ago and that was the first time in two months I’ve ever heard his voice. It was calming and soothing, nice and chirpy. Remembering the last few days I’ve had which was so horrible and under...
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“Knowing nothing is better than knowing it all.”
– The Used
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Miss Me?
I’ve been gone like… a week or so?
The thing is I’m so very busy and it’s hard to write and you’re busy and famous and young and rich. *lifestyle of the rich and the famous, they’re always complaining, always complaining~~~~* B|
By the way I’m currently listening to The Fray covering Shakira’s Hips Don’t Lie and it sounds cool and funny,...
October 2011
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Hello
It’s Friday again. Somehow my only chance to write something here is Friday after school before extra-course. And maybe Saturday evening and Sunday morning.
So, I’ve been busy. My life is a mess but I can manage. Thank God to me life-planning agenda! Well, actually it’s more of a “What I Did This Week” agenda instead of “What I’m Going to Do” agenda...